Midnight thoughts

Yeah, I'm finally back to Nagoya. This week I've been in Tokyo, visiting my brazilian friend Denise. Now its almost 7AM and I just came from the bus travel. I came straight to the pc because I don't want to sleep now, and to think that I have to return to my messy dormitory gives me the creeps.

Of course I have many pictures and moments to share, but not today. No, today is time for reflection. This is because it was an unusual trip, many things happened. Some good, some not so much. In the bus I was just thinking in the things that are happening to me in my japanese life.

Mainly the problems are related to relationships. There are the food problems too, but I'm starting to get used to it, so let's talk about the difficult issues.

I always try to get new friends, to meet people, to find and open more doors. I used to do that in Brazil too, so there is no change here. Sometimes these friendships get spoiled or just vanishes, but here I felt for the first time the 'I don't want to be your friend anymore' thing. Strange, indeed. In this trip, I lost another friend.

This increases my "good friendships lost" counter to 3, which is too much for me. Its useless to detail the reasons, but basically they don't want to be just friends. When they discover my feeling of friendship only, many reasons to fight appears. I'm just tired of this, losing people that I like.

And its not a japanese thing, only one of them is japanese. Maybe the cultural difference makes people expect more then you think is normal, and vice versa. The result is: be more tolerant, because not everything is what it seems.

I'm not sad, though. I made new friends in Tokyo, I learned a lot from everything, and every change is good.